I think the time has come for me to talk to those people that you all have offered to set me up with, particularly if they have a child that went through surgery. I'm just trying to figure out how to get through until post-surgery without crying every time "surgery" or "vsd" is brought up or any other random time I think about it. I assume eventually Matt and I will have to make the decision on when exactly we will have surgery unless it's an emergency. So, Matt and I have to have these conversations but I can't without crying.
I appreciate the encouragement that crying is ok. At some point, though, I have to stop so I can take care of my family and make it through conversations without breaking down. Some moments are better than others.
I mentioned before adjusting to life with an oxygen tank is a little challenging. We went to church yesterday and I suddenly felt on display. We got a lot of attention for how cute and little Russell is. But I'm sure people were wondering why he was on oxygen. Plus, it is not as easy to carry around an oxygen tank. I can't simply hold Russell and walk the short distance to the kitchen to get his bottle. I either have to take the tank with me or lay him down first.
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