Yesterday

Now that things have calmed down, I thought I would give a little debrief.

Yesterday was multiple clinic appointments, labs, tests and meeting a myriad of medical staff. We were at the hospital from 9-4:30 so it was a long day but well worth it.  I only cried once and that is when the surgeon, Dr. Nuri, left the room for a minute.  I pulled myself together before he got back.  I started to get close again as he was talking but I held it together.

While Dr. Nuri was explaining the details of the heart and surgery, I couldn't help but be reaffirmed that we must be created by God. The heart, along with the rest of the body, is very intricate and works together so well.  That can't happen by accident. Now, we have a lot of medicine, surgeries, doctors and nurses to fix a lot of the problems when things don't work together.  I didn't get to really dwell on that as I was trying to pay attention.

We went home to my parents, a wonderful meal and a happy Travis. He was excited to see us and even asked where Russell was when he didn't come in with me (he was with Matt).  That's significant because he has only said "Russell" a couple of times. Usually, it is "baby."

All night, I was emotionally unstable but held it together most of the time.  I finished packing, hung out with Travis and relaxed with Russell. Jim came to pick up Travis for the night and Travis got really excited.  Jim wasn't even out of the truck when Travis was saying bye to everyone. That made me happy.

I fell asleep holding Russell then went to bed and passed out within minutes.